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More overthinking!
Here we are, another day but with the same old crap going on inside my mind that is just crippling me. On my own with just the two dogs and my thoughts to occupy me. Doesn’t help that my cough is still bad and my anxiety is stopping me from going out. I just tried…
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Bad time
Maybe I shouldn’t write these things at this time of night. A time when I can’t sleep, anxious about what the next day is going to bring. A time when all I do is sit here and start to overthink. Too many thoughts running through my mind that aren’t always good thoughts. Thoughts of hurting…
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A small result!
So for about a month now I’ve been doing some boxercise workouts at home. I’ve read so much about exercise being good for mental health plus since the first lockdown I’ve not been able to get out and do any exercise because of my anxiety. Also, I’ve wanted to get back in shape and lose…
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When will it end?
It doesn’t seem to matter how much or how hard I keep fighting, I still have those thoughts in my head that I’d be better off not being here at all. Sick and tired of having those thoughts, those dark depressing thoughts that I don’t belong here and there’s no point living like this. Take…
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Proud of myself!
Tonight I told anxiety to do one! I made it to Molineux again tonight for a Wolves game and came out feeling so bloody proud of myself. Especially given the state I’d got myself in before I left the house to go. I hadn’t been feeling good all day, not because of my mental health…
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A rant about ‘Man Up’
I strongly feel the need to address something that has been bugging me for some time now. Something none of us that suffer with mental health need to hear but yet we continue to be told this and it’s really irritating me and I’m sure many others who get this too. Ever since I started…
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Supportive friends!
The past few days have been tough. So physically and mentally tired and a couple of nights ago I’d just had enough. So much so that I honestly wish I wouldn’t have woken up the next day because I’m just so tired of fighting this and getting nowhere. You feel like you’re making a bit…
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No shame in crying!
I woke up this morning after yet another awful night’s sleep. Taking me ages to drop off and when I do it’s always broken sleep. I just lay there on the bed and for no reason just started to cry. Maybe the thought of another day looming, knowing that nothing was going to change, I…
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Sleepless nights
I’m here again, so tired but unable to sleep as my mind decides to work overtime the minute I get into bed. I can’t remember the last time I got into bed and was able to close my eyes and just fall asleep. It’s always getting on for 3am and beyond when i last look…
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Another late night!
Haven’t written one of these for a few days. How can I write about my mental health struggles when there are far worse things going on in this world? Those innocent people over in the Ukraine having to deal with that every day. It’s so unfair. I need to write this though, to help get…
My Mental Health Journal 