My Mental Health Journal

A few days have passed since I wrote my last blog so thought it was time for an update and a bit more of a positive one for a change.

Things have been up and down still since my last blog, more downs than ups but it’s the ups that I’m trying to build on and make them happen more often. I went to my GP on Thursday as the results were in following my MRI scan the previous week. I was kind of hoping for better news as to the treatment available but sadly its just a matter of increasing my medication for the pain. I’m hoping it has an impact and takes away some of the pain as it’s been dragging me down recently as there is no let up. I went to bed that night telling myself that sitting worrying about it won’t change it or make it go away, I need to just try and stop focusing on it and move on. Get on with my life as best I can.

I woke up this morning feeling in a much positive mindset, not completely sure what triggered it but whatever it was it worked. I got up, got my workout gear on as spent over an hour working up a sweat on my crosstrainer, indoor bike and some boxercise. Felt good as I hadn’t done any for a week and it totally took my mind of things. Stuff I know I’d be overthinking about is I was just sitting around doing nothing. I had breakfast, got showered and felt ready to take on a new day, still feeling really positive. A bit later on in the day I even managed to get on my keyboard and try to write some music, something I’ve not tried for weeks. OK, nothing came up that I was liking but the fact that I sat there and was playing something was a breakthrough. I need to occupy my mind more during the day, I know that now. Doing things, taking my mind off stuff made such a difference today.

I also spent some time online recently talking to someone who’s going through similar mental health problems. Their issues resonate so much with my own and I really do think that talking with them about it, sharing our similar experiences has really helped me. First time I’ve had a connection with someone who’s going through the same issues, makes it feel like I’m not alone. I know I’m not anyway but talking with this person confirmed it to me. I hope we can bounce off each other and help one another get through this. Having support from someone who knows what you’re going through really can make a difference and in turn be beneficial to us both.

I want to thank you all again for the support you have shown me with this blog. It’s a massive help to me writing these and if it helps others than that’s a huge bonus. Thank you for your time and I hope you have a lovely day 💚