My Mental Health Journal

It’s been a few days since my last post. I’m still a little reluctant to blog after those comments last week but I know I can’t let the odd bad comment stop me from trying to help myself get better, and help others in the process. I need to try and be strong as much as I can and brush aside the negative comments, no matter how much they hurt at the time.

A fair amount of my problems come from the fact that in the past and more recently I’ve set myself unrealistic targets, targets that when I don’t achieve them just make me feel worse. I reckon the key is to set small goals at first and gradually build up. Some days I struggle to get out of bed, I just want to hide under the duvet and forget about everything else going on around me. So, something as simple as getting out of bed when I’m feeling like that is a small win. Doing a workout, getting showered, making breakfast, they’re all small wins and instead of feeling negative all the time I just need to see these as positive steps. Someone said to me the other day, just to have the motivation and drive to want to do a workout when feeling the way I do shouldn’t be underestimated. Told me it’s a massive win for wanting to do that in the first place. Don’t get me wrong, I find it hard sometimes to get ready for a workout but once I start it I feel good. I thought to myself afterwards how right they are. I am making progress, I am having these small wins and it’s all helping.

I listening in on the Men’s Mental Health Space on twitter again on Wednesday night. Once again lots of brave men openly talking about their experiences of their own mental health journey. All truly inspirational, some having to fight so hard to keep going. One of the girls who hosts it told us near the end just how much she’s had to battle, the things she’s had to cope with, and after all that be a single parent to a little girl and here she is hosting something like that. She too is an inspiration, that despite all the crap life has thrown at her she’s still going and trying to make the world a better place. Something like that shows me that life isn’t all bad, we have setbacks but with enough strength and determination we can overcome them, no matter what.

I will keep fighting because I know the old me is still in here somewhere. Just going to do my best to focus on the positives, no matter how small they may seem at the time. Small wins!