My Mental Health Journal

So last night I wrote the shortest of blogs, one title followed by one sentence. I wasn’t in the best place last night, my mind went into overdrive, constantly overthinking about everything that has gone wrong in my life since my depression and anxiety hit. Constantly thinking about what the future holds and how everything is going to settle down, if it ever will. I sat here last night thinking about what to write on my blog and all I could think about was what was the point of living is there’s literally nothing to look forward to?! I know I can’t keep thinking like that, it’s only going to make things worse in the long run and I definitely don’t want to feel like that.

Today being a new day I woke up decided to do another workout, mix it up a little and try something new. Ten minutes on the cross trainer followed by ten minutes on the bike ending with 45 minutes of boxercise. Maybe deep down it did help the mind because I didn’t feel too badly today. Got showered, had breakfast after my workout and them headed out. Went for a drive to go and see my parents. It was good to get out the house, good to get outside from the same four walls and into the fresh air.

My mood hasn’t been too bad at all tonight, I can’t put my finger on what has made me feel this way but I’m hoping to build on this now and try not to dwell on past failings.

Matchday tomorrow and I’m hoping I don’t have any anxiety issues and I can just enjoy getting ready, get up to the stadium with no drama, just relaxed and able to enjoy the game. I can do this so let’s go!